One of my coworkers recently asked me if I had decided if cooking is what I want to do as a career. I responded by saying it's definitely a skill I want to have, which is basically saying I don't know. I suppose that’s not such a bad thing. Her answer has stuck with me though.
She said “you are going to evolve so many times between where you are right now and where I am, and we’re only four years apart.”
I really want this to be true. Nothing brings me more hope than knowing that I will not always be the person I am today. That I don’t have to get stuck, I can change if I want to.
I love framing this with the world evolve. Not just change but growth, improvement, betterment. I am ever evolving. Maybe someday I will be someone who does her laundry regularly or knows how to host people. Maybe I will know what I am doing with myself, I will know where I want to live and work and exactly what kind of life I want to lead. I know very little about these things right now and trial and error is a frustrating way of figuring them out. I still have no idea where this kitchen experiment is going to lead.
Most likely I will still have a lot of questions four years from now, but it’s a nice dream. I know that my goals and desires will change drastically between now and then. I know I will have different kinds of decisions to make. The people in my life will change, and I have no way of knowing how or who or when.
When I look back on the same period of time, I see someone who is in for a whirlwind. She has no idea the rollercoaster she’s about to strap herself into, but she will come out of it having accomplished many things. I would do again. I am doing it again, and I want to continue to step into new environments and challenges.
Here’s to the next four years and all the things we’ll learn along the way